Take control of your mind, body & soul

It’s time to connect your mind, body, and soul and create your life experience!

When we tell ourselves we can do something, we are telling all three pillars of our consciousness—mind, body and soul—to get involved. As Walt Disney once famously said, “If you dream it you can do it.” This may sound cliche, but how many of us have heard successful people say they continued to believe in themselves no matter what adversity they encountered? They are telling us what science has discovered; your thoughts, actions, and perceptions shape the direction of your life.

Have you ever said “I felt it in my gut” or “I knew it in the back of my mind?” Those are examples of the ways in which we express the subconscious connection of our mind, body, and soul. But how do you become more aware?

Get sleep

We live in a society that encourages people to perform and be productive. Our days spent working far exceed those we spend relaxing. In many cases, we reward people who skip out on sleep and use phrases like “I’ll have time to sleep when I die.” This is dangerous to your longevity and deprives your body of the time it needs to rejuvenate.

Humans need six to eight hours of restful sleep each night. While you sleep your stress system is turned down, your immune system gets stronger, your brain gets cleaner, and your body releases hormones that regulate your metabolism. If you don’t get adequate sleep, your body is kept aroused by adrenaline, a stress hormone. Stress hormones can wreak havoc on your body, accelerating the aging process and negatively affecting your brain’s ability to function. After time, it can weaken your immune system, contribute to weight gain, and lead to depression.

Be grateful

In our culture we are often reminded of the things we don’t have or the things we think we need. Stop thinking about what you don’t have and think about what you do have. Your thoughts matter. Every time we have a thought we set off a domino effect of cellular reactions in our nervous system that influence all the molecules in our body.

Our cells are constantly observing our thoughts and are being changed by them. We have amazing potential to heal and transform ourselves through our thoughts, perceptions, and choices. Complaining drains you of energy and weakens your ability to strengthen the mind-body-soul connection. Instead of ending a thought with a complaint, find one thing to be grateful for. If traffic was terrible on the way to work, the good news is that you have a job.

Seek positive

Our body is a web of energy and every negative interaction is comparable to adding a drop of poison in the matrix. Have you ever noticed when you are abnormally stressed you get a cold? Dis-ease in the body makes you susceptible to illness. Because your mind, body and soul are connected, you can influence your health and wellbeing. When you reduce or eliminate mental and emotional garbage, your body will begin to use that energy to balance its system and return to a state of homeostasis.

Choose your social network wisely. Positive relationships have numerous physical and mental health benefits. They can keep you from feeling lonely, isolated or inadequate, and if you feel good about yourself, you deal with stress better. Our relationships should foster love, support and encouragement. If they do not, they are adding to your negativity, your bad thoughts, and your stress. In the United States, chronic stress is linked to the six leading causes of death: heart disease, cancer, lung ailments, accidents, cirrhosis of the liver, and suicide.

Meditate

During meditation your mind registers and filters emotion and nerve impulses in your body. That communication between the body and mind allows you to manipulate your mind to work for you. When the mind is functioning as intended, meaning it is self-aware, focused and quiet, it has two choices: to block out sensation or to listen to it. Meditation gives it a chance to listen.

Your body is a very complex machine that needs refueling. Meditation is one of our most powerful tools for restoring mind-body balance. During meditation you experience a state of restful awareness in which your body rests while your mind is awake. In the silence of awareness, the mind lets go of old patterns of thinking and learns to heal itself. This is why people feel refreshed or relaxed afterwards, because they gave their brain a chance to repair itself from daily stress. Research shows benefits of mediation include a decrease in hypertension, heart disease, anxiety, depression, insomnia, and addictive behaviors.

You are in control of your life. How will you live it?

Rape Survivor, Advocate, Lobbyist: Brenda Tracy Speaks

Photo credit: Associated Press 

Disclaimer: I attended this event out of curiosity; as a woman, as a journalist, as a concerned citizen. I read Brenda's story in November 2014 when John Canzano, sports columnist for The Oregonian, told her story to the public for the first time since her 1998 attack. I remember reading the story and feeling immense empathy for her as another human being, and at the same time, feeling overwhelming anger towards the people and procedures that stopped her from getting justice. I jumped at the opportunity to hear her talk.

The night I came home from hearing Brenda I had a flurry of emotions I didn't expect to have. I didn't sleep well and I woke up with her words on my mind. I had never heard someone speak so candidly, so detailed about a rape—a brutal, violent, horrific attack. I had never been exposed to such an ugly truth—not in all the articles I have ever read about anyone's experience being raped. I started questioning my role as a journalist. I started questioning how as an industry we treat rape stories like sensitive subjects in which we need to edit out the ugly parts. We do this because by filtering out the details it makes it easier for people to stomach. But, to me, the concept of rape should be unpleasant for us to read, because nothing about the experience was pleasant for the victims.

Our silence in the media about what really happens when someone is held against their will, violated, and abused does nothing but leave their attackers with the last word. When we use words like "sexual assault" interchangeably with "rape" it does nothing but soften the blow about what actually occurred. Sexual assault sounds like an oops. Rape sounds like an out-right violation. The words we chose to use, to write, and to say shape the way we think about the subject. When writing this story, I made a conscious decision to not follow the hush-hush rules about how we talk about rape. I chose to quote Brenda on topics hard to hear, hard to stomach. And I chose to do so because it was hard to hear and hard to stomach.

If you continue reading this, I will start off by saying the same thing Brenda began her talk with, "What I'm going to be talking about can be triggering for some people..."

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On Jan. 17, Brenda Tracy spoke at Linn-Benton Community College to a room of people who came to hear her side of the story. Most had heard part of her story. The part that took place 16 years ago, when she was gang raped by four men for six hours. But her story starts before that.

Brenda's abuse started as a 2-year-old toddler. That abuse continued until the age of five as she was routinely molested by a family member. At the age of 9 she was raped by her babysitter's boyfriend. She didn't tell her mom until she was 12 years old. The statue of limitations in Oregon at the time was three years, and it had just passed. There was no justice for Brenda.

Fast-forward to age 19 when the then teenage mother married her son's father. That marriage was plagued with abuse and domestic violence, once again making a victim of Brenda. It ended as turbulent as the relationship with a restraining order.

At the age of 24, Brenda decided to join her best friend for a night out. They were to meet her best friend's boyfriend, two of his teammates from the Oregon State football team, his brother, and his brother's friend. They met at the boyfriend's apartment.

“At that time I did not drink. I was known for not drinking," she told us. "Because of my history of attacks I wanted to be in control, so I did not drink.”

Her best friend assured her that they were in a safe place with people they knew. Brenda made an exception to her rule of not drinking and accepted one drink, made with orange juice. She didn't get halfway through the drink before she started feeling sleepy and dizzy.

“Right before I had passed out I looked at my best friend and saw her boyfriend grab her hand and take her out of the room,” Brenda said.

What was about to happen to Brenda would change her life forever.

“I was in and out of consciousness for six hours and woke up to being raped by the four men left in the room," she recalled. “I remember asking them to please stop.”

Although she doesn't remember the entire six-hour ordeal because of being drugged and unconscious, she does remember parts. One time she gained consciousness when the men were using an object, a bottle, she recalled. Another time she woke up to them talking about how they could no longer penetrate her because she was "so swollen and dry."

“They placed ice on my vagina but when that didn’t work they gave up,” she told us.

When she awoke the next day she was alone in the middle of the living room floor. She had her own vomit in her hair, someone's gum in her hair, food crumbs on her body, a used condom stuck to her stomach, and bottles scattered around her.

“I just remember feeling like a piece of garbage in the middle of the room that they forgot to pick up,” she said with a shaken voice and tears in her eyes.

She was confused. She didn't remember it all, but she knew she didn't give permission to any of them. She found her best friend still in her boyfriend's bedroom—she had been in the apartment for all six hours Brenda was being gang raped. 

Brenda told us that as her friend drove her home she was already blaming herself for what had happened. If she wouldn't have had that drink. If she wouldn't have been in a house full of men. If she wouldn't have been so stupid.

As she was trying to convince herself that she slept with all of the men, because she didn't want to admit the appalling truth, her friend commented to her that "things got out of control last night."

“I remember when she said that I remembered thinking, ‘You knew. You let that happen to me,’ she told us.

From that moment forward she realized her friend was no friend at all. In fact, she used the phrase "she was dead to me" as she explained the betrayal she felt from someone she trusted.

Brenda was now faced with an attack, a rape, once again. She didn't want to tell anyone, but she knew she needed to go to the hospital. This was not the first time she would have to tell her mom she had been raped. She was embarrassed and disgusted by herself.

On the way to the hospital, she told the room of teary-eyed onlookers, that she had decided it was time for her to die.

“If I’m only here to be raped and beaten and abused, then what’s the point?" she told herself. “Just get through this rape kit, then you can die and everything will be better."

At the hospital, she began a seven hour rape kit examination. During that exam she was with Nurse Jenny, Jenenne Stanley, who walked her through things they had to do to document her attack, including plucking 10 pubic hairs from her bruised and swollen genitals.

But something profound happened in that hospital room.

“I thought Jenny would look at me like I was gross, but she didn’t," she said. "She had so much compassion. She was so nice and treated me like I was beautiful.”

It was then she decided that she will live. And she will live on as a nurse, just like Jenny. She picked Jenny's brain for that seven hours as she performed the rape kit. Brenda asked where she went to school, what it cost, what she had to learn—everything and anything she needed to know to become a nurse that could one day help people.

“By the time we were done I had a reason to live," she said. "I had a purpose and I knew what I needed to do."

Two months later, she enrolled in school and started working towards her goal to become a nurse. She reached that goal, and has been a registered nurse for 13 years. She also earned an MBA. She admitted to us that she felt she had to spend the next decade "adding letters behind her name" to prove her worth to the world.

“On the outside I looked pretty good," she said. "But on the other side I was suffering from PTSD and depression."

After completing her rape kit, her mom took her to the police department and OSU to report the crime. She felt the school should be told of their students' conduct. Brenda immediately felt something was wrong.

“The problem was two of them were football players so it became a media circus," she said. “I lost some friends and family. I was blamed.”

The articles she read, the comments she heard, contained victim-blaming. Somehow it was her fault, she put herself in that position, and she was ruining the lives of these young men. In one article she recalled Coach Mike Riley quoted as saying, “These are really good guys who made a bad choice.”

Brenda told us that his words stung her more than the actions of her rapists.

“Those words hurt. They crushed me," she said. “I couldn’t rationalize how a good person doesn’t do the right thing.”

Meanwhile her communication with OSU representatives was slowly cut off, one department at a time told her they were "taking care of it." They offered no details, but she recalled "they promised" they were taking it seriously.

At the same time, the district attorney told her she had a "he said, she said" case and her chances of winning were slim. She had found out her best friend was going to testify against her in order to protect her boyfriend's brother, one of the rapists facing 20 years behind bars.

“So, I’m a young mother on welfare. I’m traumatized. My community has turned against me and I was told I don’t have a case," she said. "So I gave up.”

For the next 16 years she raised her two boys, lived with the pain of her attack, the burn of her betrayal, and the shame of her circumstance.

“I used to pray to get cancer or some kind of illness so I could die a hero and not a coward," she said. "But, unfortunately for me, I woke up healthy every day.”

On her 40th birthday she decided she was going to own her story. In all the past media coverage of her attack, her name was not mentioned, her face was not attached. She had been hiding from her story and she was done living in the shadows.

She worked with a therapist to face her demons. In one session she was asked if she wanted to call OSU and find out what happened to her rapists. At that point she still had no idea of their punishment. When she mustered up the strength to call, she found the same unfriendly welcome as she had so many years before. Department after department, no one wanted to talk.

What she eventually found out was that none of the men were prosecuted. In fact, their punishment, promised by OSU to be taken seriously, was a one game suspension and 25 hours of community service. But for Brenda, she lived with the memory of monsters for almost two decades.

Now an adult with a fresh pair of eyes and a renewed mission to find justice, she knew something was amiss with the response she got from OSU and the authorities back in 1998. Why had everyone convinced her she had no case? Why were her calls going unanswered? Why weren't her rapists punished?

That's when her activism began.

She began Google-research of everything she could find out about Coach Riley, the man whose words had crushed her 16 years before. After many, many hours she came across a story that another women posted about her rape by an OSU football player and his subsequent one game suspension. Brenda reached out to her by leaving a comment on the story.

Her comment was answered by the man who would eventually bring her story to light, John Canzano. She agreed to meet Canzano and as she told him her story he asked if she was ready to tell the world. She said she was, under one condition. She wanted her name and face attached to it.

“When the story went up I was terrified," she said. "I was prepared for people to call me a liar. I was prepared for death threats. I was prepared for it. But it didn’t happen. Oregonians embraced me. ”

Brenda told us that while Canzano was researching her story, requesting public records and digging into school and police files, he too felt something was wrong with the way her case was handled. He started to wonder what was happening at the school at the time of her attack.

As it turns out, the school stadium, then Parker Stadium, was outdated from its 1953 build. In 1998, the school was actively raising money and support for the remodel that would give them over 44,000 seats, boosting ticket sales and status. At the time, they were $1 million in debt, Brenda told us.

“A rape story was not going to help them,” she said. “So I was dealt with. I was ignored. I didn’t exist.”

In 1999, the new stadium was built.

“Everybody’s got a dollar their life is worth," she told us with tears in her eyes. "I know the exact price of mine. It’s the price of Reser Stadium.”

Realizing she had fallen through many cracks that led to her injustice, she was going to make a difference. Her first mission was changing the statute of limitations on rape.

"Five men in my lifetime got off because of the statute of limitations in Oregon,” she said. "I was going to do something about it."

With no lobbying or political experience whatsoever, she got in her car and drove to Salem to talk to Senator Peter Courtney. Senator Courtney, she said, had made a comment about her case in response to the Canzano article, so she figured he would at least recognize her name.

Brenda walked into the state capitol unannounced and found Senator Courtney's office. She then found his secretary and told her that she would like her to tell the senator that Brenda Tracy is here to talk about the statute of limitations. To her surprise, he came out almost immediately.

With his help, they were able to change the Oregon statute of limitations for rape to 12 years. After 12 years a clause was also added that if new evidence appears the victim can press charges. If that law would have been around when she was 9 years old, there may have been justice for Brenda.

She has continued to change laws since 2014, including Melissa's Law, named after Melissa Bittler, 14, who was raped and murdered in 2001 by a man whose DNA appeared in untested rape kits prior to her murder. The new law requires all rape kits to have a mandatory testing date, eliminating the backlog of some 5,000 untested kits at the time of its passing in 2016. If Melissa's Law had been in effect when Melissa was alive, her murder may have never happened.

Brenda has another three bills on her agenda for 2017.

“The worst feeling is knowing your rights were violated, but you only know that after they’ve been violated," she said. “I’m going to do my damndest to make sure to do my best to protect all Oregonians and our neighbors.”

As part of her healing process, Brenda felt that it was time to confront Coach Riley. He had invited her to come talk to the OSU football team when the Canzano story broke in 2014, but shortly thereafter he left for Nebraska.

“This summer I finally got up the courage to get on a plane and go to Nebraska," she told us. "I sat down with Coach Riley and I told him how much I hated him and how much his words hurt me.”

He took her words to heart, she said, and treated her with the upmost respect. He apologized, years too late, and asked if she would like to talk to his 144 Cornhuskers. She obliged.

“I told them that I hated their coach more than I hated my rapists," she said. "Because I can rationalize a rapist but I can’t rationalize a one game suspension.”

The team listened to her every word, and she hopes her plight resonated with them. Today, she continues on her lifelong journey to educate, protect, and advocate for others by speaking around the country.

“Really, all it takes is belief that you can," she said. "Those that change the world are the ones who believe."

There are 25 million survivors of sexual assault and rape in the United States, according to national statistics. Brenda now knows she's not alone.

“All of us know someone that is affected by domestic assault and violence, but you don’t know because we don’t talk about it," she told us. “All it takes is one person to touch one person who touches one person, and that’s how we start a movement.”

Holiday Tree Farms wraps up season selling 1 million Christmas trees

Photo by Dave Schudel

As curbsides and dumpsters are filling with discarded Christmas trees, Corvallis-based Holiday Tree Farms is preparing to plant another 1.2 million trees to replace nearly 1 million harvested this holiday season.

For every one person in Oregon there are about 12 Christmas trees, many of which are grown by Holiday Farms. Of their 8,500 acres across the state, about 7,000 of them grow Christmas trees. And although they sold just under 1 million of their trees in the 2016 season, most trees did not stay in Oregon.

“The majority of our trees go to California, probably 70 percent,” said Mark Arkills, Holiday Tree Farms production manager.

By Arkills’ estimation less than 1 percent of their trees actually stay in Oregon. What doesn’t go to California is shipped elsewhere in the country, many to Hawaii. Others are sent across seas to Japan, Guam, Puerto Rico, and the Philippines. According to Arkills, the average retail price for their trees this year was a little over $50.

Family owned since 1955, Holiday Farms is now managed by the second and third generations. The company has grown to be one of the largest Christmas tree wholesalers in the world and the largest in the nation.

“As far as we know we are still the largest supplier of Christmas trees in the U.S. based on the number of trees we sell each year,” said Arkills. “I’m almost positive we have more acres of tree ground we own than anyone else.”

Concentrated in four areas of Oregon spanning from Cheshire to Sheraton, the farm runs about 100 miles north to south and 35 miles east to west. Nearly all of their trees are grown from seed in their own nurseries to ensure a healthy, dense, and fragrant tree.

After a few years in the nursery, most trees will continue to grow for another seven or eight years before they are harvested. When harvest season comes each year, the company bulks up their year-round staff of 100 to about 700. Most of their work is done is less than six weeks.

“We start the second week of November until about the end of the second week of December, so it’s an intense season of about five weeks,” said Arkills.

They have a fleet of six helicopters moving trees every day from daybreak to sunset in order to keep up with the demand.

“After the trees are cut we put them in rope slings in groups of 12 to 16,” said Arkills. “Normally those are flown into big yellow bin trucks and trucked to a central shipping yard. That’s where the trees get shaken, bailed, and separated by size and species.”

Their most popular size of tree is 6 to 7 feet tall, with an increase of 5- to 6-foot trees sold in recent years. Noble firs are the most popular species, with douglas firs coming in second.

Although they have 10 months before the frenzy of the next season begins, Holiday Farms is now surveying their fields to inventory what they have ready to sell. Then, they will begin to prep their grounds for seedlings to be planted this spring. Come summer, they will start adding employees to begin culture work by hand that will shape the trees into what consumers have come to expect. By November, the process will be in full swing once again.

Old Blue Raw Honey opens tasting room in Philomath

Henry Storch harvests honey. (Photo by Camille Storch)

Local honey makers add a new addition to their homegrown business—a tasting room for their Old Blue Raw Honey in their honey processing facility.

Camille and Henry Storch started selling their honey about two years ago. Both are born and raised in Benton County. They met while working at Gathering Together Farm. Together they built their business.

Henry is a migratory beekeeper, moving his hives to different apiary locations throughout the year. He manages about 500 hives and raises his own queens. Camille handles honey processing, customer service, sales, shipping, and events for Old Blue Raw Honey.

Among their honey varietals, bestsellers include clary sage from Kiger Island; coriander from Shedd; and poison oak from the Cardwell Hill area of Wren. And true to the region, their blackberry honey is always a popular choice.

“We have blackberry-nectar-based varietal honeys from different locations in the Coast Range that are somewhat similar, but if you taste them side by side, you can taste the differences,” Camille said.

Old Blue got its start when friends of the Storches were logging near Harlan and downed several trees with bee colonies living in the cavities. The loggers decided to call someone to relocate the bees.

Henry put the colonies in hive boxes, took them home, and began to observe them. He realized they were quite different from other bees. They were more aggressive, flew in colder weather, were smaller and darker in color, and behaved differently. The colonies had gone feral and had been living unmanaged in the woods for several decades.

Henry has since focused on a breeding program that maintains the traits of those rescued bees, which he believes make them more suitable for survival in the Northwest. He has added a few new breeding lines, but the Harlan tree-dwellers remain the origin of much of their current hive genetics.

True to their product, Old Blue only sells honey from their own hives. They take advantage of an array of nectar source plants for their bees—from crop fields in the Willamette Valley to lush locations in the Oregon Coast Range. They have specialty honeys such as pumpkin, meadowfoam, maple, chittum, and thistle. The nectar source plants give the honeys distinct flavor and character.

“We share a ton of information about the origin of the honey including the harvest date, apiary location, and the nectar source plants,” said Camille. “Transparency about our beekeeping practices is very important to us.”

Old Blue’s honey processing facility and tasting room is located at 23990 Gellatly Way in Philomath. The Storches will not have regular business hours at that location, but the tasting room will be open occasionally for scheduled public tasting events and by appointment for individuals and small groups.

The grand opening will be held Dec. 3 and 4 from 1 to 5 p.m. Snacks, drinks, and honey to taste will be available and varietal honeys, beeswax, and honeycomb will be for sale.

For more information visit oldbluenaturalresources.com or email oldbluerawhoney@gmail.com.

Canine Tetanus: the battle is real

I've learned something that I think is important for all dog parents to know.

About three weeks ago our chocolate lab, Nani, ate a fish hook she found on a river bank. The smell of the salmon eggs that were still on the discarded hook lured her to it, just as they were meant to do for a fish. The hook became lodged in the back of her tongue and needed to be surgically removed. 

After removal the vet sent us home with pain medication, but nothing for bacteria or infection. We thought it odd and even questioned it, asking if tetanus should be a concern. We were told dogs don't get tetanus.

About a week later Nani developed a foot injury, out of the blue, with no apparent accident. She was hobbling and limping, standing on three legs whenever she could. It perplexed us, but after a few days we thought it was getting better. 

It had only just begun. 

That weekend she threw up multiple times. She also stopped eating. Worried, we took her back to the vet. After running several tests they found nothing of immediate concern, they said. We asked again if tetanus was a possibility because of the fish hook, and once again, were told dogs don't get tetanus. They gave us medication for nausea and more pain killers.

That Monday her ears began to stand up in a pointed, flexed position, like she was on alert. Her lips were pulled back as if she was smiling, and she was breathing as if she had just gone for a run. Her jaw became tense and had bulges on the side like a pit bull. She was uncoordinated and walking into things, unable to jump in the car or on the bed, as she usually does with no effort. She still refused to eat or drink. 

We had had enough.

The next morning we took her back to the vet and demanded answers. With the series of odd behaviors and appearances, we knew that something was wrong, very wrong. 

We were right. 

On that visit, one of the vets finally decided to explore the possibility that the impossible was possible. She consulted a well-respected neurologist in Portland and after the consultation was 100 percent convinced that Nani had tetanus. In 50 years of practice, the vet said, they have never seen a case of it. There is a 1 in 500,000 chance a dog develops it, they told us. They didn't even keep the anti-toxins needed to fight it at the clinic.

They quickly began to search for what they needed for treatment. 

If untreated, death was a guarantee. And she was only days away. Her locked jaw, immovable muscles (her leg), pointed ears, stretched lips, lack of coordination—were all symptoms of the disease, which had two weeks to attack her neurons as we shuffled her back and forth to the vet. Her body was losing the receptors that told her muscles to move, and, eventually, would have attacked her lungs and stopped her from breathing.  

For the next 10 days she was hospitalized, in critical condition for most of the time. 

Treatment was intense. She had catheters, IVs, and a feeding tube sutured into her neck that ran into her stomach. She had daily seizures throughout her first week, as her muscles were infiltrated by the toxin that was still in her system. The anti-toxin only killed what had not yet been absorbed, the rest she had to fight on her own. She wasn't able to walk on her own until day six. 

The entire clinic worked around the clock to save her, all the while learning how to combat the disease with their first tetanus patient ever.

During her hospitalization there was not a day we slept through the night. Every time the phone rang we panicked, thinking the worst. Once we had to rush to the clinic not knowing if it was the end. It has been an awful experience from start to finish. 

Today we are delighted to bring her home. In the upcoming weeks she will need daily at-home physical therapy to relearn things like eating, jumping, and turning. We will continue injecting her medications and liquid food through her feeding tube for the next week, every four hours. She still doesn't have enough control of her tongue and throat to swallow solids.

I have seen first-hand how invasive and detrimental tetanus is; now wonder humans get a vaccine for it. 

Every dog owner should know that this possibility is very real, no matter how rare it may be. After learning more then I've ever wanted to know about tetanus, come to find out, there is a vaccine for dogs, it's just not used very often. I wish I would have known that the day she ate the fish hook.

I tell this story in hopes that I can remind other dog parents that you know your dog best. You know when something is wrong. Follow your gut. Ask questions. Tell details that seem insignificant. Be persistent. Everything helps. We must speak for our dogs when they cannot speak for themselves.

This was a battle to the death, and we are extremely lucky Nani won, but she needed us to help her do it.